lonnnggggg

Guess its been a while since i've blogged. and i've heard it from some people. actually...only ONE! grr. =] but yeah. so this will be a recap/bringing up to date/venting/probably very long blog! ok? ok. lets get started.

last week was interesting. i started out the week with a nasty cold turned sinus nastiness. so at show choir during school i was getting slightly bored since i could barely sing. then, last tuesday night, i could sing a bit more. so i pushed my voice to work and it did. for two hours. i pushed. and sang. and pranced and danced around the stage. but it got a bit old. when one is preparing for a show of all broadway songs/dances, it can really take it out of you, especially if you're sick to start with. so as soon as i stopped, i felt awful. plus i was confronted about nasty drama of the past that people just cant let go of. i mean come on! i have little patience for people who accuse me of being a drama queen/attention getter and then THEY keep dragging it up in my face when its settled and when i've already forgiven them. my patience is like this *indicates with fingers* thin right now and i think they know it. i feel like they're just waiting for me to blow. cuz then they might actually have something REAL to talk about and hold against me. grr.

anywho. so tuesday night after show choir i was feeling quite discouraged with myself and feeling like maybe i do suck at life like they're trying to tell me. so as i stood in the cold wind outside of school, waiting for my father to arrive, i prayed and thought about all that was going on. i felt a bit better, and by the time my father FINALLY did arrive, i was tired/sore/sick but feeling better inside than i had in a while.

wednesday wasnt all that exciting that i remember. but thursday after school we had show choir practice. and i got a monologue for the revue and a part in a children's play. as i was walking out of the school, the wind blowing my hair all around ((i told my mother as i got in the car that i felt like a model in a photo shoot, what with the wind and all the random ppl in cars watching me walk across the parking lot cuz i was the first one to escape.)) i realized that i was, for the first time in a llllooonnnnggggg time, i was UBER EXCITED for this broadway revue! and it made me feel so much better!

friday was an ok school day. but friday evening i went to emily cirullo's house and slept over. we watched some good movies and had some fun times with her baby ((plastic as it was...tehe)) then saturday afternoon i got home around 2, had some time to get ready, make coffee, and then headed off to babysit lana and trent for the evening. i slept over there and went to church with them on sunday morning. then i went home, had lunch, got ready, and headed off to football, then choir, then YOUTH GROUP! which was fun. at football i decided to play red light green light. but the boys werent cooperating for the most part. losers. =]

so that was last week. this has been a bit too long. so i think i'll save today for another time...