today...blech.

today i woke up. took a shower. ate breakfast. got ready for school. made coffee concoction! ((tehe)) and headed out to the bus stop. uneventful bus ride. got to school. told ppl about my weekend. headed off to homeroom. my day was going pretty well. no major problems nothing too exciting either. altho science was quite interesting...discovering URMOMIUM newest element...tehe. "WAIT! WE HAVE TO HAND THAT IN!?!?! O NOOO!!!" *falls on the floor laughing* great times. long story.

anywho. so 9th period, a few of us were helping J-Dog ((Mr. Jordan)) by bringing some band stuff from outside in the truck into the band room. it was before orchestra started and there were like three of us in the room. the doors were left open because it was so nice out. i innocently made a comment to the air and erika along the lines of "its so nice outside! maybe we should play out there!" mr. merkley heard me and yelled across the room, "IF ANYONE ELSE SAYS ANYTHInG ABOUT PLAYING OUTSIDE THE DOORS WILL BE SHUT! THAT IS A PRIVILEGE TO LET IN SOME FRESH AIR!" ...*silence*

erika and i just looked at each other. erika:" whats up his butt?"
me: "hmm. must be a bow!" tehe silly us!

but with a start like that, the period didnt go too well. then tenth period was just poop and a half. exactly. then i had to stay after to finish a project which turned out really really badly! poo. and THEN i had to stay for ensemble which im supposed to be doing but dont really have time for it and he has been pressuring me to do and really dont want to. *sighs* but my mom picked me up at 4 and i came home.

then my sister anna made my day. she just told me how proud she was of me and stuff like that. and she said that she's been meaning to tell me that but she always forgets until a time when she cant call. but im glad that she remembered today. i think God knew that i needed it.


so today was good/bad. =/?

lonnnggggg

Guess its been a while since i've blogged. and i've heard it from some people. actually...only ONE! grr. =] but yeah. so this will be a recap/bringing up to date/venting/probably very long blog! ok? ok. lets get started.

last week was interesting. i started out the week with a nasty cold turned sinus nastiness. so at show choir during school i was getting slightly bored since i could barely sing. then, last tuesday night, i could sing a bit more. so i pushed my voice to work and it did. for two hours. i pushed. and sang. and pranced and danced around the stage. but it got a bit old. when one is preparing for a show of all broadway songs/dances, it can really take it out of you, especially if you're sick to start with. so as soon as i stopped, i felt awful. plus i was confronted about nasty drama of the past that people just cant let go of. i mean come on! i have little patience for people who accuse me of being a drama queen/attention getter and then THEY keep dragging it up in my face when its settled and when i've already forgiven them. my patience is like this *indicates with fingers* thin right now and i think they know it. i feel like they're just waiting for me to blow. cuz then they might actually have something REAL to talk about and hold against me. grr.

anywho. so tuesday night after show choir i was feeling quite discouraged with myself and feeling like maybe i do suck at life like they're trying to tell me. so as i stood in the cold wind outside of school, waiting for my father to arrive, i prayed and thought about all that was going on. i felt a bit better, and by the time my father FINALLY did arrive, i was tired/sore/sick but feeling better inside than i had in a while.

wednesday wasnt all that exciting that i remember. but thursday after school we had show choir practice. and i got a monologue for the revue and a part in a children's play. as i was walking out of the school, the wind blowing my hair all around ((i told my mother as i got in the car that i felt like a model in a photo shoot, what with the wind and all the random ppl in cars watching me walk across the parking lot cuz i was the first one to escape.)) i realized that i was, for the first time in a llllooonnnnggggg time, i was UBER EXCITED for this broadway revue! and it made me feel so much better!

friday was an ok school day. but friday evening i went to emily cirullo's house and slept over. we watched some good movies and had some fun times with her baby ((plastic as it was...tehe)) then saturday afternoon i got home around 2, had some time to get ready, make coffee, and then headed off to babysit lana and trent for the evening. i slept over there and went to church with them on sunday morning. then i went home, had lunch, got ready, and headed off to football, then choir, then YOUTH GROUP! which was fun. at football i decided to play red light green light. but the boys werent cooperating for the most part. losers. =]

so that was last week. this has been a bit too long. so i think i'll save today for another time...

Lighthouse Theory

for a while now, i've had this plan.

i am going to be a bitter old spinster living in a lighthouse by the sea.

i shall own assortments of pets to keep me company.

megan mcglinchey will be joining me in my spinster(ish)(ness)(hood).

i will work at walmart, handing out the happy-smile stickers and scaring the little children.

i will also work at mcdonalds and hand out happy meals while spouting off random facts of how obese kids are these days and how they're all gonna DIE!!!

im excited.

=DDD

David Copperfield Remake

As I sit here watching the oldest verison of David Copperfield ever made, I have realized something. As each new character is introduced into this charming story, I see that me, myself, and I could play every single part. It might be a mite difficult at times where there are more than two people in the scene. But I figure that it will all work out.

Another problem might arise doing filming would be playing Jip, who happens to be male, less than a foot tall, rather hairy, and a nasty, rough voice. Yes, he is a dog. =D

But I believe that other than that, I shouldn't have a problem. All the girls are either high-pitched voiced, "delicate" flowers or hearty, no-nonsense characters. Then there are the men. There would be the evil stepfather, the crazy uncle, the creepy wanna be lawyer, the woman-stealing best friend, and then David himself. There is a wider variety with the men, but I feel confident that I will be able to pull that off as well.

So to sum up this thought: I am remaking David Copperfield. I will be playing all the parts, except one. I will be auditioning for that part in a couple weeks. If you know any dogs interested in Jip's part, please have them contact me.

That is all.

My day...

after the last week or so of not sleeping well/enough for various reasons...i need to sleep. i actually didnt wake up until 7:30AM and was on my way to getting ready. but upon moving about my stomach protested and i felt like i was about to throw up. so i decided to wait a bit and sleep some more. plus my daddy couldnt drive and my mom worked last night. so i was just going to go to school when she got home. but then i fell asleep again and she stopped for groceries so she didnt get home until much later. then, in my half awake/half dead stage, she told me i made 14th chair 2nd violin in county orchestra and did i want to go to school? i guess i said no cuz she finally let me go back to sleep and i did so until 5:30PM. then i woke up, came downstairs, ate some food, and now i am writing you this novel just so you can know what i did all day. AKA SLEPT! =DDD

Still...no lives...=D

Once again, we find that Jonah and the Big Fish have no lives! ♥♥♥

But fun?!?!

By the truckload! =DDD

we have no lives...=D

we have no lives.
and we love it. ♥

The Fire

her gaze was drawn
the flashing colors
the shimmering heat
a sight quite like summer
floated before her
reminding her of the day
she had been lost in the embers
glowing still,
but ever cooling.
and then when she
found her way back
into his arms
she knew that the fire
had been kindled again.

im sorry

You were there
When times were good
You held my hand
You laughed along
We made it through
Some awesome nights


But as soon as the wind
Blew from the north
The years that we spent
Making memories of us
Vanished in a instant
Cause I wasn’t happy enough

I’m sorry I couldn’t
Keep up that front
But I couldn't change
What was happening
Just trying to come to grips
That there's nothing,
nothing I can do.
when i needed you most
You made me say
I’m sorry that you think
That i'm no longer enough
I’m sorry that you
Can’t get what you want

But I’m sorrier still
That I have to be sorry...

Memory Lane

those memories that once


made me smile


make me want to


linger awhile.


but i dont belong,


no i cannot stay.


here where the trees


dance and sway.


here where laughter


haunts my steps.


i'll linger while i can.


but must movemyself along.


here on the shady avenue


...Memory Lane.


---jsm

february 5, 2008